Started Teaching full time...
Whirlwind Relationship...
Still work at the University...
Still going to classes too...
Overworked...
Underfed...
Unrested...
...yeah, it's been a great year. I'll tell you more, after the jump.
So, where to start, where to start?
First, a little music to work through this list some...
Me and mine moved again, not as far this time, and didn't take half as long, but it still threw me off for a bit. Bright side is that I can now walk to work and class. Where I teach is a good twenty minute drive, but it's good, I like having the period to wake up every morning, dodging morons left and right as I try to hurry through.
As soon as I start getting paid decent money again, I'm gonna have to trade in the Jeep; it's just too old at this point. I'm thinking a Hyundai Sonata...but I still haven't thought about it much...that 200s Chrysler has been on my mind from the first I saw it.
Work with the various support groups have stymied slowly. The youth group went defunct in June, when our last kid aged out. Not sure what to do with it yet, but it is what it is. The transgender group is still going strong, but I don't have as much time for it as I'd like to give, and need to give up something before I start to go insane. My ex also kept telling me that...it may be one of the reasons we broke up. Not sure yet, so I still have things to think on about this year.
Work at the University is good, most days. We had to hire a bunch of new people in August, and some of them are less than qualified for their positions still in December. Only problem is I can't get my boss to see that...or he does see it, and it his boss that won't allow him to commit mass firings.
Teaching is amazing. I have to tell myself that more and more these days. With the national movement to a new form of teacher assessment, I have quickly become disillusioned with the job. Sure, I LOVE to teach, but the hoops to jump through are getting old quick, and I'm not even getting paid to be there yet. Another six months until I graduate though, then we'll see.
It's either teach...or Law School. Yeah, I know, forever student, never gonna have money at the rate I'm going, I don't care. I want to be happy with my career choice, and fighting for the little guy, educating the morons, arguing in general, all of these are things I like to do. Public speaking has never been hard for me, it just is what it is.
Which brings me to Masks and Hats. This is the realization I've come to of late. I wear a LOT of hats, and with each of those hats, I have a different personality. In the past, I've called this change in personality around various groups of people masks. Now it doesn't feel like that, exactly. Maybe it's the meds, maybe it's growing up more, but it's harder to hide behind a mask.
I'm me...plain and simple. I am a Chaotic Good, workaholic-y, smart ass, teacher-y, slightly psychotic bitch, and that makes me happy. In all of my current "guises", that now comes through without hindrance. Previously, not so much. I would hide behind a fake smile, or kind words that meant less than nothing to me.
Now as I change hats and not masks though, it's not so much the personality, but the mind set on what I am trying to do. Am I the student wearing a cute beret, am I the teacher leading my classroom like a circus in my ringleader's top hat, am I the scientist, donning the Einstein wig to make a point, am I the social worker in the driver cap, trying to affect change, am I the university employee, wearing a military helmet to protect myself from the fallout, or am I the fighter wearing a hoodie, ready to take out a threat in an instant.
I decided none of these worked well. Instead, I think I just have the magical helm of concentration. As many times a day, when out of combat, I can transform the hat into one of those, giving me a stat boost to do whatever it is I'm trying to do that day. It came out when I was playing Pathfinder, but then it would have had to be a fantastical Witch's Hat of +2 Intelligence.
I swear, I'm gonna write that as a children's book one of these days; "Sara and her Magical Hats". I might even make one of them a mask, so when the character is around her grandparents, when I feel like my personality is hidden quite a lot.
But yeah, for my gamer friends...Pathfinder's been the game with friends lately. It's an interesting game, and I've gotten to do a lot more with the character than I originally intended, and I really like it. Meanwhile, at home, Persona 4 has been my go to game for most of the year. I've logged almost two hundred hours since starting it in April. Otherwise, it's been Kingdom Hearts. Got a 3DS for the last Holiday Season (I celebrate Yule, as a non-denominational or specifically religious holiday, my mother and sister, Christmas) and purchased a PSP (finally), and got all the Kingdom Hearts games available for all systems. I'm getting ready to finally do that mass retrospective of the series, so I thought it would help. Dream Drop Distance is the only one I left to finish before getting started.
Any way, that's enough rambling for now. I'll try to start posting more regularly, as I actually found this really nice for the first time in a while. We'll see.
-Sara
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